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For my ears had heard of You, but now my eyes have seen You Job 42:6
Spring 2012 Newsletter
Wow! What an amazing fall and winter. Thank you for your patience as I juggled finishing Jubilee, home-life and ministry. I hit the enter key for the last time in late January and sat back with tears in my eyes. I took a small break and began writing the proposal for the agent. I hit send on Wednesday, the last of February. I will let you know what the agent has to say. I have an exciting spring in the works. We will have our first ever Celebration and Fundraiser Dinner on April 22nd and I hope to have an Open House in May. I am in the process of choreographing a new dance with the girls. I can see the dance in my head and it brings tears to my eyes. I am preparing to have my first intern over the summer, and one of my students is ready to begin a mentorship program.
Won’t it be fun to see what He has in store over the next several months?
I am very excited to share more details about our BB Celebration and Fundraiser! We will hold the event at New Life Community Church in Louisa, Virginia on Sunday the 22nd of April from 4:30 to 7:30.
New Life is a lovely, huge facility with seating for over 400. My dear friend Joy Dix will bring her bluegrass group to play for us during the evening. We will hear several testimonies from young ladies, I will share my
vision for this year, we will hear briefly from Ron Melton (my Pastor), watch our newest
dance, eat yummy dinner and then have our silent auction.
Speaking of the silent auction, I am thrilled to announce that the P. Buckley Moss Society donated a limited edition print of … you guessed it. A horse. We will sell very limited numbers of raffle tickets for the P. Buckley
Moss print. Please let me know if you would like to purchase a ticket. Tickets are $10.00 each and all proceeds go directly into the Beautiful Brokenness program.
I would love to invite all of you to join us for the Celebration Dinner. If you plan to come, please let me know by calling 540~872~4588 or emailing katy@beautifulbrokenness.org. Here is the P. Buckley Moss print. The title is Spirit I. Don’t you just love it? Let me know if you would like a raffle ticket. Even if you cannot join us for the Celebration, you can participate in the Silent Auction via phone. Let me know if you are interested
in that option. If you would like to donate an item for the fundraiser please contact the Donation Coordinator,
Jenn Ford, at 540~894~4641. Monetary donations are also welcome and will be used to defray expenses.
Hope to see you there!
Beautiful Brokenness Ministries
A Study in the Heart of God is the name of my new discipleship study for teens. My sweet apprentice
Megan Ford (you’ll hear from her in later newsletters) has helped me write this horse
themed Bible study. My heart’s desire is for young ladies to see and experience their Abba Father’s
heart for them. Horses are such an amazing vehicle for this kind of love. Young women
who cannot imagine Someone loving them just because ~ can now imagine. Horses, majestic
and beautiful as they are, are not God’s masterpiece. The Bible refers to mankind as God’s poem.
His masterpiece. His children.
I love the imagery of The Dance because I think God’s invitation to me includes me. He doesn’t
want to do something to me. I think He wants to do things with me. He invites me to participate
with Him as He expresses His Life in me. My life then, becomes a moment by moment
choosing to dance with my Abba Dad. To rest my little feet on His and allow His arms to embrace
me as He sweeps me off my feet.
I can’t wait to see how the first wave of precious daughters enjoy A Study in the Heart of God!
I am very excited to announce a line of jewelry called YAL Gal. YAL is an acronym for
You Are Loved. Some of the jewelry will become part of my Beautiful Brokenness Retreats and
some will be for sale as an ongoing fundraiser for Beautiful Brokenness Ministries. YAL Gal
Jewelry will debut at the Celebration Dinner. YAL Gal prices will range from $19.99 for glass
beads to $69.99 for sterling silver and semi-precious gemstones. Let me know if you would like
more information about YAL Gal Jewelry. We will not be selling YAL Gal until after the Celebration.
One Day BB Retreats will resume after the Celebration Dinner. If you would like more information, or if you would like to schedule a One Day at your church or home, please contact Katy at 540~872~4588. Horse facilities are not necessary.
Ministry Definition
Beautiful Brokenness is an independent, non-denominational, non-profit 501(c)3 organization which exists to communicate
the believer’s union with Jesus Christ. A practical understanding of this oneness is crucial to everyday living.
Beautiful Brokenness is committed to serving the body of Christ through counseling, teaching and demonstrating
the believer’s vital union and utter dependence upon God, the only source of Life.
Thank you all for your love and support. I love to hear from you. Please let me know how I may pray for you.
Dancing in Him ~ with you!
Katy
Winter 2011 Letter
Beautiful Brokenness Ministries
For my ears had heard of You, but now my eyes have seen You. Job 42:5
Dear Ones,
Discouragement. Anxiety. Fear. These are not unusual emotions for me. I have walked with these “friends” often during the past decade. I hear about the same feelings from counselees as we talk. This time of year is very hard for some folks. Folks who feel alone, like grown orphans. I have become more aware of these emotions, in fact, I call them friends because they let me know what I am believing. I am convinced that Papa gave us emotions for that very reason. Our emotions can be indicators of what we believe.
When younger, I spent much time trying to chase these feelings away. I would distract myself with food or busyness. Those distractions were temporary and when the emotions returned they did so two-fold.
Ten years ago Chuck lost his job as the company he’d worked for went bankrupt We floated about for months before landing in the Richmond, VA area. Chuck found a job, we bought some land, and have been living happily ever after. Until last week. The company Chuck has worked for since 2006 had a RIF (reduction in force) that included Chuck. He came home last Monday night with the news.
Our response seems strange – even to me. We are waiting, with joyful anticipation, to see what the Lord is up to. Now I’m not saying I’m not tempted to feel afraid. I am. But I know what to do when that fear climbs up from my belly, into my heart. I choose to remember. Remember who and whose I am. I choose to take that thought (the scary one) captive. The scary thoughts always attack a core need. As humans we need love, acceptance, identity, security, and worth. I wrote security in bold because that’s the one under attack right now. Who is the attacker? Not Chuck’s company, not Chuck, not me. The attacker is The Enemy. The Enemy would love to tempt me to walk as though I am the one who needs to fill my need for security. Or better yet – Chuck is the one to fill my need for security. Then I will try to wring security out of Chuck. Poor guy. I have done that before.
What happens when I walk as though God is not sufficient? I am filled with discouragement, anxiety and fear. What happens to me when I allow those feelings to remind me to remember who and whose I am? I am filled with Peace. Because the truth is – I am filled with Him. He doesn’t just walk with me. He indwells me. And I am in Him. That is the truth, whether I believe it or not. Whether I feel it or not. And as the world’s ability to fill my need is revealed as bankrupt -- I have a choice to make. Will I choose to trust Chuck’s job or money in general to be my security, or will I choose to trust Him?
If I try to extrapolate our current situation based on our previous situation I become fearful. Here is what Chuck said about that. “The moment I step out of this moment with Him, I am alone in my imagination. Of course I’m anxious. I was not designed to live apart from Him.” And so I call anxiety my friend. Because it reminds me to remember, to talk to my Papa. And out of His abundant Life I am able to live in this moment, to love my sweet husband, my precious children, my wonderful parents and in-laws.
Here is what Beautiful Brokenness means to me. The moment by moment choosing to say YES when He asks, Will you trust Me? My circumstance does not determine my destiny. He does.
As 2012 approaches I can’t wait to see what happens with my family; Mianna turns 18 this week, with Jubilee, with Beautiful Brokenness Ministries, with all of you!
I am so very grateful that Jesus came to rescue us. That He came to be not just our Savior, not just our Lord, but our very Life. He has brought us into His Life. To never be alone again. Hallelujah!
I am writing a 12 week intense discipleship program for girls (it will include Bible study, horsemanship and worship dance) and preparing to speak at events. I continue to serve – free of charge – 8 women and girls through counseling. I will resume my one-day BB retreats once I have submitted Jubilee. I shall send out the schedule when it is finalized. If you would like an information packet, or would like to schedule an event at your home or church, please let me know. I will send info pronto! Horse friendly facilities are not necessary.
I love you all and am so grateful for you! I would be honored if you would consider partnering with me and Beautiful Brokenness Ministries this year. Your contribution is tax deductible.
Dancing in Him,
Katy
As always – I love to hear from you. Call, email, or schedule a visit.
Ministry Definition
Beautiful Brokenness is an independent, non-denominational, non-profit 501(c)3 organization which exists to communicate the believer’s union with Jesus Christ. A practical understanding of this oneness is crucial to everyday living. Beautiful Brokenness is committed to serving the body of Christ through counseling, teaching and demonstrating the believer’s vital union and utter dependence upon the only source of Life.
What is it about girls and horses?
I remember being ten, and sick with longing as I dreamed about equines. I read every horse book I
could find. Drew stallions constantly. Collected those plastic statues. You can ask my mother. I’m certain
horse was one of my first words.
I got my first horse when I was twelve. Black Jack. God used that horse to reveal His heart to me. Now,
thirty-something years later, horses still turn my head. And God still reveals His heart for me through them.
The question God asks is, will you trust Me? Boy, that’s loaded. My response is often, that depends
Lord. Depends on what? Usually on my circumstances. My emotions, my ability to grasp and control the situation.
And He gently reminds me that my horses can always trust me. I am always for them. Even when they
cannot make sense of why I do what I do. How much more, sweet one, am I for you?
Last summer I received a phone call from a church in Baton Rouge, Louisiana. They asked if I would
speak about Beautiful Brokenness at their women’s retreat. As Lauren described the horse friendly facility, a
crazy idea exploded in my head. “Could I bring my own horse?”
Seven months later I loaded my sweet Scooter onto my ancient trailer and hauled him to Louisiana. It
took four days to get there. I had planned the trip for more than half a year, but Scooter had no idea. I had prepared
him for his part in the retreat yet he was unaware of my plans for him until that morning. I asked him to
get into the trailer. To surrender his plans. I took him from his home, his friends, his horse family. Scooter had
no idea where we were going, how long it would take, or what would occur along the way.
But Scooter does know me. And he trusts me. We had a wonderful trip. We did a simulation of breaking
a horse, and then on Sunday morning, to the incredible song, He Loves Us, by David Crowder, we danced.
No bridle, no saddle. Just me inviting my little red horse to dance. And Scooter responding. Women wept. And
I felt overwhelmed.
My question to my Papa before the trip was this, will this image of brokenness, the picture of reconciliation,
harmony and freedom, will that image be visible to every woman? And the answer was a resounding
YES!
As a result of my trip to Louisiana, and thanks to Second Touch Ministries, my church and ministry I
counsel with, Beautiful Brokenness is a 501-c-3 non-profit organization.
I have already been counseling young ladies using the horses. I have already seen the heart change as
these precious teens see surrender through Love’s perspective. I have seen adult women experience the breaking
of old lies and bondage as they understand, more deeply, what it means to be His.
I can hardly wait to see what He has for Beautiful Brokenness.
Ministry Purpose
BB exists to communicate the believer’s union with Jesus Christ. A practical understanding of this oneness is
crucial to everyday living. BB is an independent, non-denominational, non-profit ministry committed to
serving the body of Christ through counseling, teaching and demonstrating the believer’s vital union and utter
dependence upon the only source of Life.
Beautiful Brokenness Ministries
PO Box 181
Bumpass, VA 23024
540-872-4588 www.beautifulbrokenness.org
